New found Prospective for New Young Dad

Finally, it hit me....my life is controlled by fear. I fear not being successful, I fear what will happen if I ignore my wife, the fear of my child growing up a freak, the fear of a friend asking for help, therefore I accomplish those tasks to avoid the fear of failure, argument, stress, or time spent on another. That's right tasks...strange huh? Lately with life bearing down on me and all the responsibilities around the bend, feeling overwhelmed and frustrated has become reality. So last night I realized this and decided that fear has controlled me in lieu of simply doing the things I genuinely want to do.

With that said, I want to be successful, I want to know my wife, I want to know my child, I want to have friends, etc... No longer does fear control me. Life is about wanting to smell the roses and experiencing life every once in a while and with that comes peace instead of anger and frustration. The attached picture is that prospective, as in the summer I took an out of the way trip during business hours because I simply felt like doing so. It was the last time I did something I wanted to do. The air was crisp and the view was clear my friends, the freedom of standing at "Pretty Place" reaffirms this new found prospective. Funny thing is those roses are everywhere, fear is too. But what makes you real, is genuinely wanting to go out of your way to experience what is around the bend. Genuinely wanting more out of life, simply being real with yourself. What do you want to do today? Live life or be controlled by the fear of not living life...?